the realistic me

So, lately I've been in a spring-feverish, dreamy sort of mood, and so those days usually end up with some sort of daydream where the world is perfect and wonderful and there are no tantrums or grumpy people to deal with.

However, then the dog barks and the husband talks about not having enough black socks, I am sharply reminded that I live in reality, and sigh, better get back to work.

So, since my reality is the black sock shortage and the pile of laundry that propagates faster than bunnies, I thought you should also know a thing or two, real things about me that help me to be this transparent, authentic person that I am trying to be, even though the word 'transparent' makes me want to hide under the covers...

So, here goes, the real me notes:

-I often chose cheetos and cupcakes more often than chiquatas.
I tell myself that the bananas are better; however, there is a lot of arguments between my monkey mind and rational mind as to which one is the tastier choice.

-I live in the suburbs, but don't drive a van....yet. It's inevitable at this point;
my husband is renovating a Wagoneer for me, but he says he will be through when all the house stuff calms down. BIG sigh. The house stuff hasn't calmed down since we moved in (can you say 'Money Pit'?) so, like I said, the van is inevitable.

-I feel like I should be lauded for every kind thought, deed and action I have;
I feel like I should make a Facebook post for each time I take a caring action or have a compassion thought.
Look at my Facebook page as an example of my incredible, immense restraint.

-I have a hard time making decisions. Especially when there are more than 3 choices.
Ask my husband about the time I cried over which fork to chose when we were registering
for our place settings.

-I love my friends and family down to the very bone marrow of who they are.
Even the annoying ones.

-Though I'm not God and would never want to be, I for some reason think that the world revolves around me, and that somehow, by worrying about things, I am being caring, that somehow by thinking about the outcome I can control the outcome.
How very much I still have to learn.

-My hope is that people think I'm fascinating, insightful and a lot more interesting than I actually am. My reality is that I am probably fascinating, insightful and interesting to just myself.

-I wish every accomplishment was announced old-school, over a PA system at work.
Even if it's just to say that I got in on time even though I dealt with a cranky child the entire night.

-Even though I half heartily jog at the moment, I think I am a world class runner, preparing for the Olympics, though the last time I ran a marathon was, oh, about 15 years ago.

-I like libraries. I think we should save them.

-I hope there is a heaven for the road-killed animals.

-People who talk a lot wear me out.

-Even thought I keep trying, I have realized that our family is not an asparagus family.
Green beans, carrots, yes, but asparagus? NO.

-I think the most difficult things in life are consistency and compassion.